12.30.02 12:35am
Scanned a really strange pic of me for the main page. Scanned 50 other photos today. Will put them up later. Woo!
it's been a long december and there's reason to believe, maybe
this year will be better than the last... -counting crows.
You
know, I think 2003 just might be better than 2002. I guess in 48
hours we'll find out! :)
12.28.02, 2:05 am
The flower on the main page annoyed me. Found a pic of Beck, changed it. Tomorrow, or later today if you're picky about those things, is scanner day. I guess we'll see if I find anything better. Nap time now, it's way past my bedtime.
12.25.02
They say I'm depressed again.
The amazing thing is, as miserable as I must seem to the rest of the world, I don't feel all that bad inside, most of the time. Part of it is just being home. Even though Plattsburgh is not my real home, just being able to work and see my sisters has healed wounds I didn't even know were there. I think, I mean, I really believe that the world can be a pretty stupid place sometimes. I don't think it's depression, though, it's just reality. But I also know that completely random things/places/people amuse, amaze and intrigue me on a daily basis. The big things drag me down, the little things make everything ok again. And when I remember happy times, it's always the littlest things I remember, the stuff no one else would bother with. That's ok cause I can deal with the way I am, and I wouldn't trade my life for anyone elses. Even if I only am content with the tiniest of moments.
One big abstract thing that happened, though, that I find completely amazing, is that 2000 years ago (give or take a decade or two) someone was born that changed the way we thought. Even if you don't believe he was the son of god, he said some amazing things. Do unto others as you would have them do for you. Seriously, I hoped you celebrated that today: love, giving and acceptance, not the consumer feeding frenzy that gets so much attention. Cause if you can't give freely, you'll never recieve freely either. Sorry I'm such a downer, guess it's that "depression" kicking in again. *devilish grin*
Anyway, hope everyone has a great Christmas (or other holiday) and a Happy New Year! I'm going to spend my break doing things I should have done awhile ago, including updating this site. I have access to a scanner again! Woo! :)
12.09.02
Saw one of my friends from high school the other day (Beth), and I've been increasingly talking to more people from that part of my life. I decided I should post something from that era, something.. uh.. meaningful. Well, check out the miscellaneous page. So you want an explanation, huh?
Back in the day in Chittenango I used to wander around downtown with my friend Beth. We would go to the salvation army, buy candy at the pharmacy, and plan things for her zine. Well, at some point, and I don't know who found them first, posters began appearing on telephone poles all over town. "You are being watched." they said. Some of them had a picture of Bob Ross with devil horns, and some had a big eye. So we began to search for them. Beth usually found all the interesting ones, but even I had an eye one. We put them in our lockers and thought they looked cool.
Well at some point the cops found some of these posters and weren't pleased. Freedom of expression, what's that? The rumor started going around that whoever did the postering was going to get charged with 44 counts of vandalism, one for each staple that held the posters to the poles. It was "dangerous" to put staples in poles because the utility workers could get hurt climbing up the poles. Yeah, right.
Well, someone ratted out Beth for having a poster in her locker, and she got called down to the principals office to talk about it. They wouldn't believe her that she was just collecting them. I mean, we were helping them take them down! No one ever talked to me about it, but Beth was pretty shook up. Freedom of expression, remember? Right.
We never found out who put up the posters, although I heard it was some disgruntled former art student who had graduated a few years before. Yeah, I'd be pretty mad at Bob Ross too, I guess. The picture I put up is not a scanned copy of the poster, cause I don't have a scanner. It is merely an imitation. Thank you random person, you have greatly amused me, although probably not the suckers who have wandered onto my webpage. :P
11.11.02
I put some stuff on the about me page the other day. And then forgot to update this. There's a link there now to some poetry I wrote, which is ironic considering how much I can't stand most poetry. But there it is, don't laugh at me. :P
11.07.02
I woke up today and found I had gotten Pearl Jam's new single "I am mine" stuck in my head. I first blame Ithaca radio. But I also blame Pearl Jam. What happened guys? Drugs? I know, that takes a lot of bands down. And I realize that you haven't been that good in awhile. Not since Vitology, really... but, seriously, guys, consider changing your name to TOC - the original creed. It'll clear up so much confusion. Do you remember writing real songs? With real lyrics? Leash? Go? Jeremy? Satan's Bed? You might want to try that again sometime. I am mine, just doesn't cut it. Now I know you're trying to make some kind of statement, the government is overarching into our lives, but the kids know that. That's why we listen to deer dance (soad). Hello, what do you think radiohead is for? And you know, you don't have to make a statement. Tell a story (september '75, i was 47 inches high -BFF) or talk about relationships (but you've never been a waste of my time -Liz Phair) or just have fun (I've been dry long enough, my brain and body need some abuse -L7). Been listening to a mix of that for years. You could even be unilaterally depressing, but the eels do that so well, I don't think you could match it. So this is my message to YOU, PEARL JAM. GIVE UP. Do you want to end up like your friend Neil Young? Too old to rock but still trying? Saw him at HORDE a few years ago, he was terrible. SO GIVE UP ALREADY. Don't even try side projects, just take your pile of money and run. I might be able to salvage some respect for you.
rant out.
9.29.02 I'm lame.
I put up some pictures of my family on the *gasp* family page. Including one of my half-brother Matthew, who turned 2 yesterday! Woo!
7.04.02 Well a week becomes a month, etc....
I currently have a paragraph up on the about me page. I doubt there are a whole lot of people out there waiting for the next installment, but it was kind of rude for me to pretend I was going to have time to do this webpage in June. I doubt I'm going to have time to do this in July either. Why, you ask? Well, 1) I work 25-35 hours a week. 2) I have a lot of paperwork type stuff I should be doing on the days I have off from work. 3) I put off the paperwork, making even more work for me. 4) I'm on a modem. 5) Picture-Scanner-Thingie very slooooooooooooow. So those are my excuses. Those should hold up until, oh, August or so.
Anyway, Happy Independence Day. May the U.S. Constitution and all its amendments hold true for you and your kin.
6.06.02 Well, the "Friends" page is finally done. So if you are a friend of mine, you might want to check it out. Then again, you might not even be on those pages. Why? Because I don't have a picture of you. So when I see you next, just be like hey freak, take my picture already. I will.
I'm also in the process of conceptualizing (is that a word?) what the about me section is going to be like. I have multiple photo albums to sort through first though. That should be started in the next week... Sure. :)
5.27.02 I tend to only change this webpage when things in my life change. On May 19th, I graduated from SUNY Binghamton. Some people would say that is a pretty big change. I don't feel much different, but when I moved home for the summer, I went through all my stuff to sort for a garage sale. I realized I not only had waaaaaay too much stuff, but that I've had a pretty good four years at school. I decided I wanted a real homepage with stuff that I like, as well as spot to just put up some stuff about me. WARNING: It's going to be picture heavy, so you'd better have a good connection or be patient.
I've also decided that I'm too lazy and much too unreliable to put much effort into getting a blogger or any similar tool. If I feel like saying something, it'll go here.